To Connor: Being your mommy was the most fulfilling thing I've ever done with my life. I had the opportunity to mother you for almost 28 weeks. I dearly miss the time we had together and sometimes I wish I could stay in those days before your birth forever. Where you were safe and sound and loved more than you could understand. You are still loved that much. Thank you for giving me the chance to be your mommy. Thank you for keeping strong and reminding me you were still hanging in there just when I needed to know it. I wish I had been there to hold you when you left the Earth but I pray that you knew that I loved you. That you didn't feel scared or alone. I love you. Your struggle, our struggle, has changed me into the woman I want to be. You taught me so many things in your short life and I am thankful that we chose to let you call the shots. I am overcome with emotion thinking about you but there's more good there than there used to be. I love you to the moon and back.
To all the mommies out there: Whether you hold all of your babies in your arms, some of them or none of them, know that you are loved and cherished. You ARE a mother. Whether your children are adopted, brought into your life by marriage/significant other or your own, you are STILL a mother. Each and every one of you are fighting for what is best for your children. It doesn't matter exactly how you do things as long as you are holding your children's best interest in mind. You are all wonderful mothers. Motherhood is not a competition or a contest. Your children love you because you are their mother. They don't need some perfect mom who always does the "perfect" things, because they already have that. Hug your children tight today, if you are able. If your children are not with you, take time for you and do whatever helps you feel better today. <3
Mommy and Connor