Happy Birthday Connor James! At 3:08 pm today, you would be turning 2. What an exciting age 2 is... we're all missing out on so much. I can't believe that it's been two years since I was in the OR waiting for you to arrive... it doesn't seem so long ago. Oh baby, mommy and daddy miss you so much. Your sissy is starting to understand that you aren't here. We've always talked about you but while we were making cupcakes for your birthday, she asks me "Who has Connor?". At first I just answer that no one has Connor. The question caught me off guard and I didn't know what to say. Then she asks me "Well, where is Connor then? Why isn't he with you?" and I answered that you are in Heaven with the angels. She seemed to be content with that answer for now. Two years... your mommy has changed so much since you were born. Things are so much different. I still struggle sometimes. I still find myself asking why. I still blame myself sometimes. I'm not sure if these things ever go away. I so hope that the angels are giving you lots of love on your birthday since mommy can't quite reach there. I love you baby boy.Happy Birthday.