We had a ball trick or treating. It's still really hard to hear Katie talk about you. We were on our way up to a house when she looks at me and says "Connor trick or treat?" I answered that no, you wouldn't be able to trick or treat with us and her answer was "Yes Kimmi. Connor trick or treat." So, I guess you were trick or treating with us. :) Holidays are the worst. I mean I know it's only Halloween... but we were supposed to have a sweet baby boy to dress up this Halloween... I was supposed to be a mommy... a mommy that everyone KNEW was a mommy. It's still so hard sometimes sweet boy. I miss you like crazy and I'm not sure if it will ever stop being a bittersweet feeling when I think of you. I think a lot of what you would be like... who you would look like... if you'd smile a lot... how it would sound when you cried or laughed.... It's hard to miss out on everything. It's hard to not be able to hold you. And it's even worse to sit at home alone... I love you sweet boy. Just had to write and get some random feelings out.
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