Having a hard time this weekend. It's been rough on me here lately. Having my sweet step daughter over helps but I still keep thinking about how she should be playing with him now. He'd have been 15 months old now.... he should have been learning to walk (or run) and following his big sister around. And probably taking all of her toys :). But unfortunately it's not like that at all. It's just hard. Still feels like everyone else is moving on and having more babies and leaving me behind... because I'm still stuck some days... this shouldn't be how our journey with our son ended. I don't know. Just still having some really hard times sometimes. Especially after hearing things that some people say about grieving parents. Just a side note. I will never stop missing my baby boy. I will never stop talking about him. I will never stop advocating for him and spreading the word about CMV. This doesn't make me mentally ill or unstable. It makes me a mother. Don't like it? Pretend I don't exist because it's exactly what I'll be doing for you.
Goodnight! <3
Goodnight! <3